Though this matter has blown over,i still fight back the tears that sting my eyes and wet my face when i think about what could have been.You chose this path.It was not what you wanted.Not what i wanted.We were forced.But i've found my hero.Someone who helps my pain dissolve into happiness.It's heaven.My current status:lost girl with a hero.I can say that i've forgotten 9-10 month of feelings that i had for you.But the freindship-it's something that i'll never forget.It was wonderful.I cant say that im a conformist in the area where relationships are concerned.I have my opinions.I have to thank all my volleyball teammates,my good friends,bestfriends and all who have showed concern for me when i was down.You guys really helped me pull myself together.Thanks for the tags and letters wrote to me.Looking at you guys' "enthusiastic-ness" i really told myself i had to pull myself together.Thank you guys:DI LOVE YOU!Im okay already.Quoting what i told my current,'Relationships are just merely a part of growing up.They are meant to help you grow and mature and c ome out of each one a stronger indivual.'What he replied struck me.'A relationship is like....a bad one will destroy you and a good one will mould and make you.'I cant exactly remember what he said exactly.but it really struck me.He also played a major part in helping me pick myself up.Thanks to him too.Oh and to this important guy,HAPPY 15th!!Just wanna let him know that 'You're special to me.You hold a special place in my heart.You're special in God's and everyone's eyes.Thanks so much for all you've done for me.'I've picked myself up and moved on.Its joy.But if you still wanna be my friend im always open.I'll never close the door on someone who has left me with so many memories.good and bad.You've helped me to mature and grow into a new individual and im grateful.But i think that its time for both me and you to move on.If i have moved on thought im still bitter in my heart you must too yeah?Okay so now we've both moved on,we'll hold our memories close to our hearts and leave a special place in each other's hearts okay.The end had to come anyway.I hope that you're doing fine cuz i am too.I have found someone i love and i hope you have too.Thanks for everything.I hope we can still be friends.